A Mama’s Worry

4 May

We have 4 more days until Malachi’s 1st major surgery. Tuesday is the day. I’m starting to dread it. I know it is necessary, but this mama wishes it didn’t have to happen. I don’t want my baby’s chest to be cut open. His perfect little scarless chest. I don’t want him to endure the pain and the scary-ness of it all. We’ve been having so much fun as a family. He knows so much English now. We have our routine down and his life is going to be interrupted again for a major surgery. We were never able to find a translator in time and develop that relationship. I did talk to a few heart moms and they said it is probably good that he won’t know until the day of surgery. So, he won’t worry. The surgery is going to take between 8-10 hours. That is a long time. I know they will give updates along the way, but it is a long time. Then, we must wait a little longer to find out if his body is going to handle the new shunt and pray against all complications. My little Malachi. Mommy wishes you didn’t have to go through this. I pray that all goes fantastic and we see your sweet smile beaming to all the doctors and nurses in no time. I will be ready with the jello, the popsicles and all the Paw Patrol/PJ Masks movies your heart desires.

We had a call with Boston Hospital today. I think it has added to my anxiety. This surgery is not “it”. There will be more and this isn’t even the “major” one. At some point in the next year or so (we hope) we will be traveling to Boston for 1-2 more major surgeries where his little chest will be cut open again. Lord, please be with my sweet boy. We know that he will also have to have surgery on his ear and another surgery to have 4 teeth removed. Please Lord help all of this to not diminish his sweet spirit. Help him to remain our happy boy despite all of these scary surgeries. Please bless him with successful surgeries and a long life. A life where he can glorify You wherever he goes. Please give him a heart that loves you more than anything else. You made him. You knew before he was ever born that he would need these surgeries to sustain his life and to give him a better life. A life as a son, a brother and a grandson. Not as an orphan. He is loved so much. We thank you for his life and for what you have already done for him. We ask that you provide wisdom for the doctors, for Kevan and I as we make decisions and grace that all will go well for him. You are our comforter, our salvation, our everything. Thank you for all of your many blessings, including our 2 sweet boys. I ask these things in Jesus’ Name. Amen.

4 Responses to “A Mama’s Worry”

  1. Jennifer Mayer May 4, 2018 at 8:36 pm #

    Sending lots of prayers.❤❤❤❤

  2. Cheryl Whiteaker May 4, 2018 at 9:01 pm #

    Threw tears I tell you my heart is breaking, thinking of all he will be facing. I don’t even have words I think will comfort you Jayde. But I am praying for little Malachi and you and Kevin. He’s such a sweet happy boy since he got to his forever family and home. He’s learned so much so fast. I pray he heals fast too. I love you Jayde your a great mother and your boys are blessed to have you.

  3. Marilyn J Welcome May 4, 2018 at 9:04 pm #

    Jayde, I just got through praying for sweet Malachi. I will continue to pray for him, and especially during his surgery on Tues. “Jesus loves the little children, all the children of the world. Red and yellow, black and white, they are precious in His sight. Jesus loves the little children of of the world.”

  4. Cira Abreu May 5, 2018 at 1:39 am #

    Good luck to Malachi. Praying for him and all
    of you.

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