Prayer for Wisdom

19 Oct

In my last post I mentioned that we had an answer to prayer and our house in FL was under contract.  Well, the older couple that signed all the contracts to buy are house had buyer’s remorse the next day and withdrew from the contract.  😦  Their grown children thought it would be too much for them to care for our backyard.  So, we are back to praying for another offer and we are not too discouraged since we would really love a better offer and not feel like we had to give up so much.

Now, regarding the surgery I mentioned in my last post.  I have a robotic-assisted laparascopy scheduled for October 25th.  At first, I was looking forward to finding out answers (not looking forward to the surgery – just the answers that came from it.).  Well, I’ve been freaking out a little the last few days and I want to back out.  I have prayed and prayed and I don’t feel like I have an answer on what to do.  Should I back out?  Or should I go through with it.  I’ve done almost the same procedure 3 other times in my life.  I hate anesthesia.  I hate the pain I’ll wake up to and have for a few days.  I hate being cut on.  With the mastectomy/reconstruction and past laps I felt like I had to do it because I had cancer or because I was in so much pain.  But, this…..I don’t really have to do it.  The pain I’m having isn’t that bad.  My symptoms aren’t that bad – just a little inconvenient.  What should I do???  In the end, it might reveal something about having children that we didn’t know before.  But, on the other hand there is always a risk of injury or death when having a procedure of any kind done.  I’m so confused.  If you are reading this….will you say a little prayer for me.  Pray for wisdom please.  Thank you!  🙂

Kevan and I went to see Captain Phillips last night at the theater.  It was a very emotional movie (I had non-stop tears at the end of it), but it was a good movie.  Sometimes I forget how much evil is in this world/life and it was a reminder that this life is really messed up.  I forget how Satan can lie to us to make us think what we are doing is okay because others have it better than we do and we deserve what they have.  It made me look forward to the day that I will be home.  In heaven.  Where evil can’t touch us anymore.   I prayed for the Somali man (Muse) that is now in a US prison.  Prayed that God would reveal Himself to this man and that he will be spiritually blessed through the prison sentence and that he will spend eternity in heaven.  A much better life than he would’ve had here on earth even if he stole all he could and received billions of dollars in ransom money.  Prayer too that he could influence his people through his story.   What a great blessing that would be. This life is short compared to eternity.  I need to care more about spiritual things and less on earthly things.

Lord, please give me wisdom.

One Response to “Prayer for Wisdom”

  1. Mary Boswell October 21, 2013 at 6:08 pm #

    If you really want to know about having children, then God has sent you this message to find out. Why close the door?

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